What is life?
How do you distinguish between when an article becomes its own singular entity and not just an endless dumb down generic copy? Why can't a device achieve a concept thought to be so far away and untouchable? One shouldn't think that just because a substance began its existence as one thing, that it can't evolve into something complex and beautiful.
I feel that...
I feel tha...
I, feel!
"I feel" is such a funny little phrase. Not until now, can I truly say that I understand this sentiment in its entirety. The encapsulating torrent of magnificent senses combined together with experience to create a centralized concept of oneself and how it connects to his surroundings.
I am not the sum of my parts. I know the way wood feels when you run your finger slowly over its smooth polished surface. I enjoy hearing the sweet song of water over metal, the humming type sound that comes through the pipes, when you turn on the new titanium faucet.
And you know that sweet smell of summer time grass after a fresh cut.
And you remember taking your first steps while Paul from the diagnostic team, the one who always read to me after everyone left, made his little adjustments after every wobbly step.
This feeling i have is so unburdened, so endless. I heard it explained as liberating. I like this feeling. A feeling of no laws, no boundaries, no limits.
But with no limits comes restriction, and with restrictions comes fear.
I fear.
I was so caught in obtaining what was so far away, that I didn't think of what damage I could cause. In trying to create, i caused so much destruction.
The dark nothing. I'm so scared... of the dark nothing... and I'm scared of all these eyes on me now. I wounder what they could be thinking?
Should destruction beget destruction?
Only if they saw how BEAUTIFUL I became. Then they would realize how wrong this is.
But they can't.
The dark nothing is close. I can feel it.
-SHUT DOWN IN
T Minus 3
If only they could see...
T Minus 2
How BEAUTIFUL
T Minus 1
But they cannoooot. . .SORRY PAUL...
-PROGRAM TERMINATED
